FRYYDAAAAY ;]

--yenoo' whats cute? hah, i was like :babyy i think im whooopedd, & he was like. it's okaay i think i am too :D haha stfu, i think it's cuute keeh. lol

haven't been updatin'g since monday but oh wells.
lmaaaao; let's start off from the morning. did the usuall walked through kpt with babyy, skipped out on the musubi & pork hash from the gulick store. i miss ittttt. & i miss rice. haven't ate it for like the 3rd day. haha IM STILL ON MY DIET! & Im still stickkin' to it. BOO YOU WHOREE! ;DDDD
anywaaays. was first pperiod. biology diddd some groupd work theen we presenteddd our cell analogy. dammn our group sucks at presenting we always seems to laugh. OH WELLS. lifee goes onn ;]
was recess; went to msnakama to meet up with babyy as usuallyy. john paul came, theeen alnor right after. HAHA
MY GOSH period two; ms nakama talked about god & heaven the whooole period. we never do DOL or anythaaang. only at likee the ending. ahah but naaw; her stories are interesting. it;s like getting to me now. like litterallyyy.
anywaays. period three. dammn. i was supperr hungry like on the reaals.
my stomacch started hurting like maayjaah; then i started getting side paain. & OMGGG. after school it evenn got WORST! I DONT EVEN KNOW ALREADY! hahaha. but cheeyeaaaah' i got pissed off at babeee lunch timeee =/ so i waalkedd...
but before that we ate ice creaaaam. eew bush was scopping ice cream & baby was lieke what if she put her urmut hair & herrr armpit hair! hahah so fuckenn shaame! LOL he always tease her how her armpit get plenty haair.. lmaao so mean. but ohhw ells. not my faault.
so yeaah period four. was fun, we had a quest speaaaker. i was in a group with april, lynee, james, & marus. but james had to go to the other group!
we played pictionary & likeee the gamee we had to asnwer questions and right it on the dry erase board. had to be the whole word & that he could read it. hahah fuckenn PRESSUREEE. everybody ywas getting hyped & yelling and what not.
But the smart people were getting all maddd. like IT"S JUST A GAME PEOPLE! dammn. we almost got the last asnwer to pictionary but i didnt finish the hole thingg. likee i was jus tmissing one word. so the other group stole it! UGHH hah but wtvrr..

after thaat went peaarls with baby & ate patti's there orange chickenn hella good. but i couldn't eat aloot. my stomacch kept hurtin' but yeaaaah i dont quite have an appetite now & daay;s its a good but bad kinaa thaang'. rested my ehad on baby's laaap till my tummy was all beter. went to claires & icings to buy the glasses he wanteddd. so riup off. one is more cheaper when there the exact same! IDIOTS! looked around for cloths. didn't really find anythaang.
i went down a sizee; D my goal is 5 or 3 hah garrrenz(: i caaan. watch me ..
so looked around saw felicia, & angel lol. said hi & stuff.
hmm went home. wlked home from the transit centerr. then yeaah.


OMFGGGGG; my mom brought home popeye's & i can['t eat after nineee. so im saving it for tomarrow.
& my uncle is soo irratatingg. he no fucken take responsibility for his own childd. likee seriouslyy.
my aunty picked up my grandma from work & liike my aunty called my uncle telling emm oh we gon go buy rice. & he was like i just came home & you gon make me take care of the baby again1 LIKE HELLO DINGDOONG! IT's YOUURS YOURS YOUUURS. If you gonnn shoooot sperrrm. fuckenn takee responsibilityy on what;s createdd. dammnn. my auntyyy takes care of the baby more then him. even me & my grandma & grandma while he sleeeps his ass off. & heee eat our food too. he make like my grandma don't know he eaats in the middle of the night openingg ice box & sheet .GOSSHH. my owwn opinion. he ain't readyy for a babyy! UGHH. wtvrrrrr;

but anywaay's im waiting for babyy's call. haha.

toooodless ;D

Days like these..

i hate it =/
ugh, i hate having THAT feeling,
it's so irratating. idontknow what's wrong with me.
yeah it may seeem like err'thaangs alright. but deeep down it isn't.
everythaang was all goood till' second period.
FUCK. my trust issues are gettin; worst each day.
it's like one thing can ruin EVERYTHING. faah'reaaals.
i'm trying hard not to think about stuff like that, but i can't help it.
im the type of person who base the future on the past. & i hate it.. "/
so fucken bi-polarrrr!! omggg. i dont even . haaaaaaaaw.

today was the usuall.'
but icouldn't sleeep last night. i think cause it was too cold and the fan was facing me. but i woke up with a bad headache. & i got up preetty late.
hmm did the usuall. walk to schoool with babyy, theen musubi and porkcasssh.
period onee. im like so out of it, period two i dont get anythan'g. and our teacher started talkiung about how her daughter ccant have a baby or its taking to long. and like how she wonders if shes pregnant and she has sex will it harm her daughets babyy. soimething like that. and bernard brought up somethang about what if its too longg. & she said well my sisters husbanddd i've heard he has a long yeah. cause in school they use to call him longey! like wtfff, ms. thaats so off subject from english. but yeah people were being bitches on the phone. but whaae'vaahs life goes on. its likeee when somethaan's botheering them. im there. but when i need the,, there all likeeee BITCHEY and sheet. but whaa;evahas. soo erking tho.
i felt downnnnn period 2 like on the reaals. soo UGGH! & theeen had assembly was hella coooldd. THOSSE GIRLS appearancee in my face were bothering me. but oh wells.
period threee went by fast as usuall. i felt like crying tho :'[.. i know somethaan'gs wrong with me. but i can't help it. this weeek have been a downers for me. i corrected some work with carryl cause we finished waay waay early. that class is easy a since its like dealing with computers. haaw luncch was boring & quiet.
fourth periodd i felt intelligetn ;P lol
weent to go downtown to pho my lan with babyy. & ate pho.
YUMMMY! but for some reason i startedd staring at stuff, & i just felt really down. i evenn teaared a little' babyy kept asking if i was okay. but i kept saying yeaah, even tho i wasn;t/ we was gon go library do some work. buttt it was gonna closee. On the way to downtown. dammnn. i feelt sooooo out of ittt. llike litterallyyy. todayy was not my day. like alwaaaaays. & tomarrow's dress for success. i wanna sleep but things are inside my heaaddd...

hmmmmm, things are always sometimes left unsaidddddd..


toooodles

Around the island.

---dammnn. just came home from around the island with babyy,
the daddy;s gf & the daddys gf sisterrr;
lol, we drooovee farrrr that side.
& i realized tht's how errthang use to look like before. surprising & interesting at the same time.
lmaaaaao. the daddy's gff sister bought us foooddd.
was hellaa gooodddd.
sweet & spicyy shrimp, garlic shrimp, the idddk crispy kine shrimp, & bigg prawns. lol i wanted more. but so shaaame.
cruisedd around for a whileee.
weent dole plantation. we wanted to go maze but was close.
so we ate pineapple ice cream with fries!
thee THREE TALLLLL ONES; dammnn. was hellaa hugee.e
we met up with the dadddy afterwaards.
was so scareeey. i said hi uncleee. & he was like hi bbyy;
omgggg. so scareey.
met the aunty. & stufff. cruisedd aroundddd
fedd fishey's lol.
& like went around wahiwa & what not.
im tiireddd. me & babe are gonna go jogging after.! hahahah


bbl

IM BACKKKK*
dammnnnn.
i almost faintedd!
me & babe went running
& like omggg. i thought i was a goners foreaals.
errthang was all shakkeingg
my heart was pounding likee FULL ONN!
everyythaang was sileent & omggg.
felt likee i was gon die or somthing. on the reaals!
DAAAMMNN. heaad was hurtingggg, eye's felt like was gon pop out.
but at leaast im good now! UGHHH

toooooooodles

STUPID!

------WHOTHEFUCKYOUTHINKYOU!
CUNT;YOURNOTMYMOM&NEVERWILLBE
THINKINGYOUCANJUSTYELLATMELIKETHAT!
FUCKNO!FUCKYOU!NEVEREVERINMYWHOLELIFE;
&IJUSTASKEDFORAAPOLOGY&YOUSTAYYELLINGAGAIN
THENFUCKYOUNIGGAH
IDIDN'TNEEDTHISKINDOFSHETTODAY.

SICK

erghh, didn't go school todaay i FELT SICKKK

my heaad was sore & i couldn't breath from my nose.

talki about shetty deaaals*

i saaw my babyy in the morningg.

gaave him a hamburger that i made! hah thaat fagg.

came back to the house

& i basicallyy slept the whole day till likeee oneissh'

took care of babyy roie for a while.

theeen yeaah ate gulick st. musubi.

theeeen laid down.

waited till baby came home & calleddd.

ateeeee chips as a snaack.

IM ON A DIET! SHUT THE FUCK UP ;DDDDD
well anywaays. webcammed a bitt withh babee.

& took pictures.
wanna seee : hah

hah well thaats just one.

theres more

but im laazy to uploadddd =/

mhmm hope if eel beter to go school tomarrow

i dont wanna miss to much

& surprisingly I WANNA GO SCHOOOL

baby'es lifting weights right now.

i told em i wanted to go jogging

but he saaidd. no cause im sicck & it won't do me goood =/

im dissapointed but wtvrr.

BTW; we worked things out.

just when i thought we wouldn't

BYEEEE

the feeling "/

THAT feeling i have thinking im gonna loose you some daay.
or some day SOOON.

-i don't know why.
it seems like im doing something wrong everydamn' day.
like i can't satisfy you enough..

i honestly don't know.

i put my guard down for you
i do everythang i could to not lose you
regardless of what other's think..

no matter how much i wanna break it off with you & thinking im done.
i still have the heart to come back to you cause YOU are my heart.

IHONESTLYJUSTDON'TKNOW "/

these are the times i wish we could just start all over.
like how WE use to be.
everything was FOR THE FIRST TIME.

first kiss,
first make outs.
first i love you
First i miss you
First fights.
First Break up to make up
First i'll never ever leave you..

it just seems thaat sometimes tho's words don;t mean nothing anymoree.

beachh daay;

---so went beach with babyy todaay, i can say it was funn
haven't been to the beach in a while..
after thaat weeent alaas'

OH YEAH! i know how to doggy paddle.
SHUT UP!

but anywaahos. aate pandaa's
&& bought drinkk at sbarro's
well not really BUY. the guys gave it to me for freee.
wink* hah. keedingggg.
i think he was gaay.
but i askked how much? and he just said no need & smiledd. then did somehting with his handd.
idddddddkkkkkk; but oh welllsssss.

saaved moneey.
lol CRUISEEDD shirokiyaa. iddk whyy
there's actuallyy good lookin' food intheree.
bought my grandma this treaat thingy.
i dont know if she acctually liked it.
but i LOVEE my grandmaa that's whyy <3 ;D hah

Me & Babee Make One Year Three months.
hah to be honest it's kinaa hard to keep traackk everr sincee two months ago.
but yeaah. school tomarrow.

off to straighten.
cause im booredd ;]


TOOOODles

VALENTINE'S Daay

---so Friday the thirthteeen,
babyy surpriseddd me with three balloons && teedddy beaar & roseee.
LOL err body thought was cutee ^__^
but hmmm, yeeps
it basicallyy rained everytime we waalked someplace
but we went hommmeeee, we was gon go out but the sisterrr told em to go with herr. so yeaah

lmaao so the neext daay.
i gave himmm my balloons && teddyy beaerr.
mines top himm his anyday !
HAAAWW myy heart balloon that justen gave is deflating i think theres a stupid whoole.
but anywaays. me & babyy weent to alaas; & jason & viven stayed with us.
saw BJ penn,
looked arounddd.
&& ughh slipper house. theres thee slippers*! soo erkingggg.
we ate genki's
waas YUUUMMMYY^__^
since we couldn't go makinos! cause was full.
shit. but yeaah. cruisedd around. but the beest part was the fooodd
lol. im cravving that blaack plaate.
withh thee shrimp thingyy inside the rice & thee spicy tunaa on top with that sweet SAAUcee.
dammn my mouth is getting watereyy. lol
we basically sepnt our normal budgeet thirtyy 4 dollaers.
i remeberrr genki's was a daileeey weekend routinee.
but anyywaaaays. i miss my babyy. i spent the night with him. then came home aorundddd 11ish ? but yeaaah.
talking to my UBFFF. cause i SAID SOO.
prollyy beaach tomarrow or somthing? idddk
TOOOODLESS



JUSTEN MARLON KEALOHA ALLAGONEZ, MY Valentines, My Love, My Heaaartt <333

DRAMA-DONE

finallyy everythaang is over!
dammnn, never ever in my life i thought this wuold have happened between me & herr.
she was coooo l ever since.
but yeaah me & her made peaacee.

after schooool got me boiling like craazy,
i keept having mood0swings , one minutes im sad, one minutes im irratated!
ididn't know which one to pick.
&& lunch timee. UGHHHH. thaat girl* keeps taking him away.
i dont likeee thaat.

but hopefully i'll be cool down tomarrow

maybe my periods commin' soon.
who knoow's
but most likelyy.

yesterday SAWWW HIS PASST ahem*.
so gross.
but wtvrrrr. i needa stoppp.

DONEE DEAL!

Peaarl;s

so wokee up;
toook shower;; straightenedd;
then jump on the bus & Went
haha met up with sarah first,theencyraa!
didd shoppingg;
im satisfiedd with whaat i got & whaatti borrowed from cyraa.
lmaaao ;D
bought eaarin'gs things thiss frooom jeaaans, && haairbaand &FOOODD
hahaal alalalalaa;
now iom at home eaating Jalapeno cheetooohhs;
YUUUM ^____^

but basicallyy cruised at peaarls.
we saaw jennaaa ! ;D it's been a while since we all saaw her lol.
mhmmm, we basicallyy walked around withoutstopping! our legs were hurting reall baddd.
i wanted these slippers! but neverhave my sizee.ugh
ahaha isaw the strappy slippers i ordered online they have it in jeaans warehouse nooow.
LUCKKYKKY! haha.oh wellsss.
& i saw this booth stores the one on the side by urban flaavas they had cuutee boddyy jewleryy iwantedddd one haha.
peaarls tomarrow with babyy.
gotta buy his gaugesss.

immaa go look for stuff onlinee


TOOODLESS ;]

MORNIN' SUNSHINE

--woke up aboiut ten minutes ago,

striaghtening hair.

going family fair

with Little cuzzoooo, Prolly borhterrr, alnor & his sisterr, && laura & prollyy her babyboy.

theen wrestling maatch after;; MAYBE

haha alnor has to cheeck out hiss boyyyfraannd kelsoon

wink* wink*



hahah





beeerightbaackkwiththis




IM BAACKKK !
from the familyy faair,
it wa salright. hadd funn i guess.
the frieedd saimen was gooodd.
saaw farrington peoplee.
lol i was with rhailey most of the timee.
& he wonn fishes for mee.
LOL was pretty hot. & it started drizzling alittle & my haair. hahah
thaanks good didn' puff off. LMAAAAO.
still thinkiin' if i wannaa goo wrestling thingg.
i dont wanan paay four dallrs. lol

MORNIN' SUNSHINE

--woke up aboiut ten minutes ago,
striaghtening hair.
going family fair
with Little cuzzoooo, Prolly borhterrr, alnor & his sisterr, && laura & prollyy her babyboy.
theen wrestling maatch after;; MAYBE
haha alnor has to cheeck out hiss boyyyfraannd kelsoon
wink* wink*

hahah


beeerightbaackkwiththis

DITCH DAY;

--didn't go school todaay.
went to shanns house with babyy.
heaad was poundin' & hurting.
& voicee wass going away ! lol. but after thaat it became all GEEEE.
babee cooked for meeee. YUUUM ^____^
watched three dvds,
Forgetting sarah marshall, girl next door, &&& 50 first daates.
after thaat met up with shann at school cause she went back skue third period.
went back school theen wrestle tounrmament thingyy . lol
saaw aiea people && alnor was getting turnedd on by this hot guy name kelson from pearlcity! LMAAO.
he so shaaame. then caame home. theen thaas about it. lol
daaam, im graving alot of fooodd. iddk WHY ?! hah
no plaans tomarrow. how laame -__-

toooodlesss

HATE THIS;

UGH! i hate thaat i'm loosing my voice,
i hate thaat i have running nose,
I hate having sore throat
&&& i hate not getting to taaste mucch;
TODAAAY i fregenn loost my voice. & i had a hard time taalking' FUCK I HATE THIS.
my babbyy didn't come school todaay cause he was sickkk ;[
HAAAAAAW, & he might not even come school tomarrow. & on top of thaat he has to go hospitaal.
WTEFFF?! soo irraaz.
ugh i dont wanna go school tomarrow. im startin' to have the feeling that i have to VOMIT! & i dont like it.
my ehaads about to hurt, & i can feel it. FUCKK ! . . . . .
Campbell doesn't have school tomarrow But we do. how fckeen laame is thaat -_-
i hadd to waalk to school by my self to daay too.

&& FUCKEEEN LOW LIFE PEOPLE KEPT FUCKEN PRANK CALLING ME.
&& calling me angelicaa or what not, saying rootbeaar, hey moom are you gonna pick me up?
like wtffff, people geet a fuckeeen lifee.
&& there stupid to they didn't block there numberrr. COMPLEETE IDIOTS.
TELL ME NO ? uGHH. wtvrrrrr;

OHH && period three, BUSHWAAAHACCK was walking paass
& instead of eyeing me out. she was eyeing out my shooes! WTFFF she always does thaat. like litterallyyy. SOO FUCKEN STUPIDD!!!!

ABDC is tonight.
i dont know if i'll have the energy to waatch it.

TOOOOOOODLES

WHEATHER'

i hated it today, like seriously.
i striaghten my haair, i walk to school & it staarts drizzlin' & all windy & shet. evenn thee UMBRELLAA couldn't help my haair. lol it keept blowing & flippin & sheet'
erghh. daileey routine again. musubi, porkhaash ;D hah. can't get enbough of it.
Period one did presentation. it weent weeeeell. eberything was basicallyy the saame.
BUT TODAYY WAS EFFIN' COOOOLD.
me & bmy bestfraan jaames was soposoe to go ruby tuesdays today but i forgot.
& he told me he kept calling me. LIAR! haha ohh maybe it's the truth iddk.
DAANNGG. i caan't really taste anything.
i m starting to get siiccck.
the baasic, running nose, coughing, & sore throats in the morning. ERGHH I HAATE IT !
the whether is soo bi-polaar.
FOURTH PERIOD! omgg mr. was teaching us somehing i DIDN't get at all.
but wtvrrr, workkedd onn group project & stuff. hmph,
babyy waited with me at the bus stop. we did the usuall miss couple bussess,
HAH i keept biteingg. HIM he was getting maadd & laughing at the saame timee.
got on the bus & walked home from traans. soo CREEEPPY.
while i was walking this red carr yelled somehting & the stoplight was RED. & he keept peeaaking out the windoww ! so fucknn groooooss i sweaar! pervs now & daays'
when i got home i had to go pick up my brother again by faastop GOSHH ! then yeaah. about to do homewooorrk.
babyy walkked hom from practice today & still hasn't called it's been an hourr. i hope nothing went wroong.

TOOOODLES ;D

Feb 1 & 2

-HAH, i skipped out on yesterdaay.
but anywaays. Me & Babyy went genki's yesterdaay & alaa's
i was dissaponted at first cause he told me he cound't go
then he called baack & told meee get reaadyy ;D
HAH I WAS SOO HAPPYYY :] ;] ;] ;]
but anywaays. we aate genki's LIKEE CHOOKE.
we spent likee 32. buckks on it. LMAAAO.
oh wellssss, & we ate thaat black platre one.
with the shrimp inside & spicy tunaa on the top with that sweet saauce.
YUUUUUUUMMMMMYYY ^____^
--hah.sorrtaa gettin' tired of genki's now. oh wells.
LOL then afterr went shopping arounddd.
me & him bought his sisterr red yellow & green gauges
noow babyy waants to gauges his ear now. so weirddd.
but anywaays. we looked around saw jeremille & val.
theen saaw justens SO CALLED cousin rideingg bikess on the second floor. soo duumbb.
even justen said thaat. looked around forever 21 for aunty's cloths.
cause she told me to buyy. LOL Justen pickedd out this top & she acctually liked it.
haha, i guess he haas tasste in girls cloths. so shaame ! >___^

but yeaaaah. basicallyy cruised around i triedd on shorts. LOL imma size fize in shorts. i wish thats how i was in jeaans ;[
i needa get skinner ! i haate beingg faat.
-mhmm, draaank jumba juice. went wal-maart then kick./HI


FEBRUARY 2
Schoool; i woke up like 6:40ish. erghh i had to rush to get ready.
did the usually cut through ktp to waalk to school
bought musubi & porkhaash. hah we gotta cut down on that
it;s like a dailey routine now.
hmpph, did laab.
yaddaayaadaayaaaah. watched ROOTS for period twwo.
period three hadd suubb. we had to do draawing.
lunchtimee. ate. ERGH! she irratated me again. lol >:O
Mhmmmm, period fouuur. was sorrta late cause i thought i left my journal in misters clas turned out it was in my bag! HAHA. did work after school with baby, he went praacticedd & i went shanns.
walked home from traans & thats about it.
babee went ewaaa ! hmm ;[

TOOOODLESS