BITCH;

your my fucken older HALF brotherrr.
cruiseing with myy cousin that has a boyfriend & you have a girlfrienddd.

okaay. SO LIKE JUST BECAUSEE YOUR ACTING LIKE A BITCH DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO DRAGG MY COUSIN TO ACT THE SAME.
YOUR FUCKENN .
you should be mature for your fucken age but then again your acting like a childish brattt.
get a fuckenn lifeeee.

you make like i wanted what you guys brought home. whaat tryna rubb things in my face?
make like i fuckenn careeeee. fucken shit grow the fuckk upp.

So like;

were gooddl we made deaals.
were happyyy;

but were not togetherrr ! hahaha <3


&&& FYI;
i fucken know what happens & when the fuck it happens.
& if people wanna fucken runn there mouth without them knowing the STRAIGHT UP FACTS,
then so fuckenn beee it.


i know how to fucken control things. so STFFFFUUU (:

you heard this & you heard that. & fucken whaat. that's what you fuckenn heaard.
know the fucken straight upp facts.

sooo..

i was tryna sleep bcause i had a mean ass headache.you popped into my mind out of nowhere & i started missing you........ :[
i wanted to call you, but i kept telling myself don't
i really have to see if i can handle without you orr nott.

youu PINKEY promised to wait for mee..




7:10 pm. brother turned on the tv to the musicccc channel thing on cable, & it was playing write me a letterrr. all ovv a sudden you popped in my mind again.

Break?

..okay so were on it ? i dont know what to feel.
it didnt really hit me as bad as before.i guess since my cousin from england is here & like were out goingg places & crapp;
hmmm. it's kinna being hypricritical because he saiddd what's the whole point of going on breaks, it's either you break up or stay together.
so i honestly don't know what's in his heaaddd.
but other then that. im holdingg up just find.
NO TEARS or naawthing.
i guesssss, i have faith that will be back together ? but mhmm. who know's
we haven't talkkeddd nor called or text or anything.
but hmmph will have to seeee.

toooodles (:

Quickie;

it's third period, lately i've been stresin' out on so much shit. My cousin from england is staying over at my house for two weeeks. That meaans no room for meeee. sleeping in mom & dad's room. There telling me to sleep with her but naaw akwards. MHMM.

wooopiee doo! COMPUTER's FUCkEN BROKEN AGAIN. just over the fuckeeen power button.
stupid shit.
so im stressin; & tryna do my biology portfolio from class here & there & babes houseee.

CHEEEEEE. haaaw. im like failingggg bilogy. stupidd shit.
but at leastt i got HONOR ROLL.

yenoo what that means.! DADDY rewards me with CA$H MONEEY!

but omgg. i hopee they still give out honor rolls next year too.
it's good to acctually have rewards. before i never use to give a shit now Im so all up on grades.
im not even thinking about ditching or waaat now.

anyywaaaaay;s im fucken wearing shorts & it's hello cold. either orrrrrr. i can't do crap.

TOOODLES

Quote;

Find happyiness in yourself first, don't expect someone else to give it to you.

-Mrs, Nakama

Fuckin'

REALIZE !

HMPH.. =/

sooooo things came to mind again. about herrr*. like on friday. it's like whenever she's aroundd henver acts the same. he goess outttt & goes with his wrestling friends. and likeeee he doesn't show like he cares just cause he's around.. i dont knoww if im typeingg this right or not. because its' hard for me to explain how i feeeel. he just doesn't get it. i tell himm so much times how i feel. but yet no changee. it's not a big change. but is it hardd to feel like hes not into me just causse THAT GIRL is aroundd. i know she's from the past. so why the fuck he still acting like thaaaaaat. uggggh. whaat shame? from his past is there in the same room as us. it's a whole diffferent storry. it really is. fucck honestly this hurts. it's cuts real deeps. i can never seem to fixx this problem. i really cant. it's likeee when she nots aroundd. were like a couple. but when a person HMMMPH. why can't he just act the same. even ifffff that person is aroundd. whyyy ?!!!!!!!! !@#$%^&*()_+. uggggh........

IF YOUR READING THISSS: it's hurtttss. i dont like you like that. just cause she's arounddd :(
:(

Venting Moment,

--school,mayday,doctors,kams,bale & orange sherbert.

okaay. period two. babe got me totally stressin' on the fucken reaals. UGGGH.
every damn day we seem to erkked the fuck out ov each others no matter whaat. but at the end of the day we bought act like nothing went wrong 3-5 hours ago. yenoo ?. sometimes i wonderr how it would be like if i break things off. but it's hard. because without him is like a night mare. he's like my Bittersweet love. i love Him & hate him at the very same time. it's not that i hate him it just that i hate how he acts sometimes. like today . lunch timee. UGH he always walks ouut when were together and ditches me. like what's your problem maan. i hate it. he never use to do that. haaw. things change.. i know it's life.. but i can't help it if it bothers me yenoo. im a girl for gosh sake. iddddk. when i tell em what's bothering about him .. he always tells me. maybe you dont even know what you want anymore because you always seeem to find something wrong with me.. i mean it;s not likee theres things wrong with me. i guess its just because i dont wannt that same problem to come again back in the future, or maybe ii expect to much.. or maybe it's just because i dont wanna get hurt.. yeahhh prolly all threee is the reasons. hmph.
sometimes i feel that im gonnaaa expect to much and he's going to feel so locked up and just leave. im scaared.. i knoww were still young. but mhm YOUNG LOVEEEE.

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from jazzzmine:

its not the first time I've heard it, that women are crazy. we hold grudges, its much better to piss off a guy than a woman becuz a women? women are mean. translation: hell hath no fury like a women scorned. its nothing new these attitudes, these platitudes all telling us we'eve got no right to get mad and if we do, were doing it wrong. and so yes, our revenge is sweet and yes we hold our grudges as our way of saying we wil never forget how you destroyed us. all we want is a little bit of peace & a little respect. so the next time you see an angry women, MAKE THE EFFORT TO SEE WHAT CAUSES HER PAIIN, knowing that we, like you, reserve the right to get mad for any number of a thousand stupid reasons.-brenda kwon

it's like

we constantly butt heads, and none ovv us can understand where were comming from.
it's like no matter how much i try to understand where your comming from you never cooperate.
& hold it all in..

here we go..

AGAIN. things are said, then misunderstoood.

BTW; im not gonna down myself cause of this'. somethimes things are gonna come out of peoples mouths but it won't mean a thing.