Days like these..

i hate it =/
ugh, i hate having THAT feeling,
it's so irratating. idontknow what's wrong with me.
yeah it may seeem like err'thaangs alright. but deeep down it isn't.
everythaang was all goood till' second period.
FUCK. my trust issues are gettin; worst each day.
it's like one thing can ruin EVERYTHING. faah'reaaals.
i'm trying hard not to think about stuff like that, but i can't help it.
im the type of person who base the future on the past. & i hate it.. "/
so fucken bi-polarrrr!! omggg. i dont even . haaaaaaaaw.

today was the usuall.'
but icouldn't sleeep last night. i think cause it was too cold and the fan was facing me. but i woke up with a bad headache. & i got up preetty late.
hmm did the usuall. walk to schoool with babyy, theen musubi and porkcasssh.
period onee. im like so out of it, period two i dont get anythan'g. and our teacher started talkiung about how her daughter ccant have a baby or its taking to long. and like how she wonders if shes pregnant and she has sex will it harm her daughets babyy. soimething like that. and bernard brought up somethang about what if its too longg. & she said well my sisters husbanddd i've heard he has a long yeah. cause in school they use to call him longey! like wtfff, ms. thaats so off subject from english. but yeah people were being bitches on the phone. but whaae'vaahs life goes on. its likeee when somethaan's botheering them. im there. but when i need the,, there all likeeee BITCHEY and sheet. but whaa;evahas. soo erking tho.
i felt downnnnn period 2 like on the reaals. soo UGGH! & theeen had assembly was hella coooldd. THOSSE GIRLS appearancee in my face were bothering me. but oh wells.
period threee went by fast as usuall. i felt like crying tho :'[.. i know somethaan'gs wrong with me. but i can't help it. this weeek have been a downers for me. i corrected some work with carryl cause we finished waay waay early. that class is easy a since its like dealing with computers. haaw luncch was boring & quiet.
fourth periodd i felt intelligetn ;P lol
weent to go downtown to pho my lan with babyy. & ate pho.
YUMMMY! but for some reason i startedd staring at stuff, & i just felt really down. i evenn teaared a little' babyy kept asking if i was okay. but i kept saying yeaah, even tho i wasn;t/ we was gon go library do some work. buttt it was gonna closee. On the way to downtown. dammnn. i feelt sooooo out of ittt. llike litterallyyy. todayy was not my day. like alwaaaaays. & tomarrow's dress for success. i wanna sleep but things are inside my heaaddd...

hmmmmm, things are always sometimes left unsaidddddd..


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